He pissed me off again...

My boyfriend is so closed as a person; he doesn’t talk to others easily about himself, about what he’s doing generally or what he’s done recently. He always asks questions instead, and wants to know about other people. He does the same thing to me of course. After a 9-month relationship he replies to my question “Where have you been?” “Out”, if I ask “With whom?” he replies “With friends” or “With a friend”. Then I’m forced to ask him with which friend and where exactly. I’m not the guy who wants to know everything in detail in a pressing way, but what the fuck, that’s not an answer! If I go on asking, he does reply, but he brings me to a situation that I don’t like. And I’m almost sure that there’s nothing to do with cheating or something that I mustn’t know. It’s just his type. Unlike me who without being asked I tell him everything with every detail, what I did, where I’ve been, with whom, at what time, etc. If I did something that I wouldn’t want him to know, of course I wouldn’t tell him, he’d do the same I guess. But it’s his style that pisses me off. Uff…

Generation next

We went to the theater with my boyfriend yesterday and among the audience there were two guys in their early 20’s, beautiful, trendy-dressed and gay. I usually feel “proud” enough for my boyfriend and me regarding how we look like to the others eyes. But as I was staring at those guys I was thinking that they represent the next generation gay couple from ours. I feel young enough when I deal with people in my age, of course with the older ones and also with the little younger than me or even much younger since their look is up to just trendy. When I see gay guys close to 20yo dressed very trendy and looking very younger, only then I realize that a generation gap tends to be formed… But I wasn’t gazing at the guys in the theatre in an envy way but I was admiring their look, beauty and youth, thinking the (similar) things that I was doing 10-15 years ago. Fortunately, I still feel pretty fine with my age, my look and my life so far ‘cause regarding the overall situation I’m quite satisfied by the way I balanced between personal gay life and social behavior and status. Yes, I’m generally optimistic as a person…

Eurovision Song Contest 2007 - the greek contestants

Since I run a – temporary - quiet love life it’s time to deal with other things such as the nominees to represent Greece in Helsinki for the Eurovision Song Contest 2007… Three are the candidates: Christos Dantis (the composer of the 2005 Helena Paparizou’s “My number One” at the 1st photo), Tamta (originally born in Georgia, x-USSR at the 2nd photo) and Sarbel (half Cypriot, half Lebanese at the 3rd photo) but all three are having a great success in Greece. Each one is gonna compete singing their own song and people will vote to decide which one will represent us. Although we haven’t heard their songs yet, I hope Sarbel has a good dance one ‘cause he dances really nice shaking his hips in a very sexy and irresistibly attractive way… The Greek final will take place in the 28th of February, until then we’re crossing our fingers…

Another refreshing Sunday day-trip

Another warm - regarding the temperature (21oC!) – Sunday, another day trip to another close to Athens seaside town, another great time that we had with my boyfriend. Unfortunately it didn’t end up with sex like the other time but it was ok anyway. We needed to spend some time together after a Friday and a Saturday night that we went out separately or stayed home with our friends. Maybe we just introduced a nice Sunday-trip circle, we’ll see…

Such a misery guy...

One of the things that I can’t stand in a person is stinginess, especially when it’s not a matter of lacking of money but unwillingness to spend, ie pure misery. My boyfriend is such a guy. He always pays his share only, he usually makes unanswered calls in order to call him back, when I tell him to go out somewhere he says “I don’t have money”, if I say “don’t think about it, I’ll pay” then he agrees, and many other similar countless occasions. And I know that he’s getting paid very well, better than me and at the same time he’s saving money while I’m spending here and there and I’m full of credit cards and loans. It was unavoidable not to feel so happy when he told me today that he’ll be responsible for another project for the summer for which he’ll gain loads of money. I was thinking that at the same time he refuses to go out because he can’t afford to pay his drink and also that when we order salads in restaurants he chooses the cheapest one, even if the difference with the next more expensive one is €0,20…
While I was writing these lines he called me and I wasn’t in a good mood ‘cause I have to make my annual check-up at the cardiologist and instead of encouraging me he got sulky - though I had previously explained to him the reasons - and said “you’re not in the mood, send me an sms when you leave doctor” and we hung up! What sympathy! What the hell am I doing with this guy?

Problems with friends

I’m quite disappointed with my friends. They had asked me if I’d like to join them to bouzoukia (a kind of club where the top greek singers perform live) next week and I said that I‘ll know for sure in the beginning of February ‘cause maybe I may have to go there for another friend’s birthday. So I suggested postponing it a few days. In the beginning they said “yes” but today they told me that they’re thinking of going at the first date – probably without me.
I wouldn’t feel so disappointed – although I’d like to join them so much - if this was the only incident. I’m afraid that from the time that I have this rather serious relationship with my boyfriend I feel that my friends (all are single) keep a little distance from me and they don’t put me in their plans. I don’t like that to happen. I have made clear that there are things to do with my boyfriend and things to do with them, but I think that they feel that they have fallen from the list of my priorities and they react making plans without me. They just ask me if I want to join them or not but they don’t let me involve during the plan-making phase, like previously.

Hero...

Tonight we went out with my boyfriend and a friend of his. While they were talking, once they had a disagreement about something and my boyfriend started making fun of him and talking to him in his usual ironic style. Then his friend told me “How can you manage with him? You’re a hero!”, I said “I know” and we laughed. But my boyfriend didn’t. He didn’t like it at all. He smiled, but many times during the night after that incident he was bringing it back out of nothing, supposed to be in a “funny” way but I’m sure that it touched him…
It’s true, anyway, but unfortunately he doesn’t take any notice, no matter how many times I tried to show him my rejections to some of his ways.