Democracy does not revenge

Having been shocked by the cruel videos of Saddam’s killing I can’t think of anything else than to wish something utopian like people not to be idiots, as the greek root of the word means: a person who doesn’t involve in common issues but only cares about his own. Less Violent, More Human and thus Happy New Year 2007!

PS. The following paragraph is taken from freeathens.blogspot.com

"Cheer up Christian Republicans: you killed another one, Happy New Year!!!
American Republicans should have felt guilty for the killing of Saddam if they had the privilege of feelings. But since they are unable to feel anything at all unlike other human beings, it’s worthless even to bring it to discussion. Although I’m against all this national proud stuff, it’s the first time that I really feel that I am proud to come from the country that invented democracy and I am quite satisfied that after 2.500 years the whole continent, Europe, has adopted many of the values of ancient Greece. One of them is that “democracy does not revenge”. But this applies to real democratic countries; those in which death penalty is legal are not considered democratic ones of course. That’s the difference between USA and Europe: hypocrisy - morality and values like the degree of importance of the human life. "

Zero

Yesterday we went to a near casino with 2 friends after having drunk a lot in a friend’s house at first and me driving drunk with 160km/h in a distance of 100km and back in the middle of the night, from 12.00 till 4.30 in the morning. It took us less than 15 minutes to gamble and lose €100 and passed the rest of the time having free drinks while gazing at strange people with serious and angry faces gambling and losing loads of money in such an easy way, like the way they earned it probably. But generally we had a good time because it was this moment’s decision to go that made us very excited to do it.
Today I just saw friends and went to the movies. I had a great time too but at the end of the day I missed my boyfriend. And I realized that this time I miss him more than the previous ones. Does it probably mean that as the time passes we’re getting closer one another? Should I be happy about it ‘cause it really means a lot or should I be frightened because the relationship is getting tighter and I regard it as a serious undertaking that I don’t want to have this period in my life?

Happy New Year to all of us! 2007 will be a blast, Marianna's right!

No cheating...

I gradually realize that it isn’t a matter of willing to cheat someone, especially someone that you care about, only because of lack of good sex. I’m not that type of guy to do it in cold blood. But… If there is a moment for example one night being drunk in a bar meeting someone or just returning from a club making a phone call to an ex-boyfriend it’s easier and that action justifies that the only purpose is the lack of sex and nothing else. It’s not a matter of a pre-taken decision but just “a moment of weakness” or “low resistance” to temptation...
For the moment I just enjoy seeing more my friends, meeting people I don’t see so often lately, still making plans for the New Tear’s Eve, gathering at houses playing games etc. Innocent kind of stuff…

Missing sex

I miss sex. I definitely miss sex. Even when my boyfriend’s here I miss it - or even if I don’t miss it at all, I miss the good one – imagine now that he’s not in Athens and he’s coming back next week. Under other circumstances I would cheat him, in fact I would have cheated him from the beginning, but now I’m thinking about it. I’m almost sure that he has already done it to me, sometime that he believed I cheated him and he did it back for revenge. Unfortunately this is the way he is thinking.
Anyway I don’t want to do it for revenge but because I really miss sex. Shit, I don’t know what to do. On the other hand, I definitely don’t want to risk my relationship for a moment of pleasure, even if I consider it as vital. My mind is so confused and I have a week to decide…

Canceling

I’m getting so pissed off when my friends cancel what we have already arranged beforehand. These days it’s happened several times – in fact 3. Ok, I know my friends and I know their customs but if we plan to do something one or two days ago and when the time comes it’s being cancelled after my call with the purpose to fix the exact time, then I’m getting pissed off. Probably I’m not talking about real friends, but people we’re going out with. So I’m gonna pick up my best friend alone without a friend with whom we had already arranged.

Tele-Christmas

Yesterday I had the most quiet Christmas day as far as I remember – except of the one 15 years ago that I had a light kind of pneumonia… I wasn’t sick this year but I didn’t even get out of my house all day, I was watching TV, copying favorite series to dvd, editing them, printing their cover etc. At the same time I was exchanging thoughts over the TV program with my boyfriend who is in his parents’ house in another town almost captive.
At least today I’m expecting by best friend to come from her birthplace too in order to spend the day together… It’s the last day of the Christmas holidays anyway…

Night out with friends

It finally happened last night what I was afraid. We went with 2 friends to this gay-friendly bar but there weren’t many people there in general and as for gays the only ones were probably us 3, the music was nothing special and we said we should go somewhere else for the second drink. Then we discussed about the radio spot of this meat-market gay club that we‘ve all listened in the evening with the motto “the happiest club in the city” and a friend suggested that we can go there and the other one agreed. You understand how terrible was the situation that I was found. I’d like to go there too, but I shouldn’t. So, I told them that I can’t go there and explained the reasons why. My friend told me “ok you just go there for your friends, we’re here to protect you from ‘temptations’ anyway!”. But I told him that I don’t want to open such a going-to-gay-clubs-with-friends circle ‘cause it will be created a situation that I won’t like and he seemed to understand. At that point I made them clear that if they want to go to that club, they can go, it’s fine with me, but they both interrupted me and said no, no problem let’s go somewhere else altogether. I think that I put them to a difficult position anyway. So I proposed 3 other gay-friendly bars, they easily agreed and we went to one of them where I found an x-boyfriend of mine doing PR there. It’s been a long time since I hadn’t seen him, he was very enthusiastic, he brought us some shots and generally it was nice and cool night out with friends, though I would prefer it to be more clubby.